finding god

i just started reading david crowder’s praise habit, and it’s pretty wild. i’ve been seeking God so much on just feeling his spirit in everything i do, because i’m the type that let’s how unhappy i am about one thing kind of just encompass everything else. i tend to be good at finding the bad in everything. i just get so tired of feeling like the top-of-the-surface-christian.. it’s not even putting feet to my words because there are no words. there’s not even that. i kind of feel like a fraud. but i’ve been reading this book and 2 things struck me [so far]..

‘When good is found and we embrace it with abandon, we embrace the Giver of it. This book explores that journey. This book is written in hopes that you begin to find God everywhere. Yes, in church on Sunday at 9:00 am, but also in the seemingly mundane. In traffic on Tuesday at 5:15 pm. In a parent-teacher meeting. In the colors of a sunset. On the other end of a tragic phone call. Every second is an opportunity for praise. There is a choosing to be made. A choosing at each moment. This is the Praise Habit. Finding God moment by revelatory moment, in the sacred and the mundane, in the valley and on the hill, in triumph and tragedy, and living praise erupting because of it. This is what we were made for.’

“So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life – your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life 0 and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out.”  Romans 12:1-2

i want to feel him at work.

i’ll hold my whiskey down

today the veteran’s day parade when right past our house. we heard marching bands, and saw old fire trucks and heard laughter for a good portion of the day. you just can’t get that any place but officer’s row. the next best thing would be living in NYC when the Macy’s Day Parade comes through. OK, that would actually be 10 times better but I’m still happy with what I got.

also, countdown to Ohio Thanksgiving Trip/AKA Much Needed Vacation/AKA Yay We Get To See Our Family starts right now. As of today we have 16 days. I hope it snows a little. I won’t miss this place for 8 whole days.

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I’m good with it.

Halloween costumesss..

For some reason Hollywood failed to impress me with their costumes. All that money and nothin’ to show for it! Anyhow, a couple of them did alright.. these are my faves!

Rachel Ray as Fay Wray [i wish i'd thought of that!] and the whole Today Show cast. For some reason I really loved Roker as the Gingerbread Man.

OUR costume pictures are soon to come!

johnny had a birthday

i personally wish it had been better, but he said he liked it. i wanted it to be jam-packed with good things; instead is was only slightly filled. ah well. there’s always next year.

Christmastime

Here’s my Christmas wish list so far!

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abracadabra

i’m beginning to see my breath; on the window, in the air. metal has cooled and feels cold to the touch. leaves begin to drop in a silent homage to summer gone by. i’m ready for heavier coats and heavier hearts. which explains my current occupation with doubt; nervous ticks and sudden hopes. new season, new feelings. i want to be more creative and do the things that i always set out to do.. i want to sit down to something i want to do, not something i brought home from work with a deadline. i want a vacation. i want an extra day off. i don’t want to set my standards as high as others have set them for me. i want people to wonder where i am and wish they had the guts to say no every now and then. i want to pull the sheets up over my nose and feel OK with it, nobody waiting on me. and i wish days off weren’t a race to accomplish as much as we possibly can just because in another day we’ll be back to work. then again, i wish my body felt the same way as my brain and would just be ok with sitting for once. i feel cap-sized. overrated and overworked. i’ve been offered more, but do i want to do more along the same lines of what i’m already doing and in addition to? or do i want to climb the ladder so to speak and try something new? do i even have the choice to try something do? was that even in my job description? and i want dining room chairs so i can make dinner, and we can sit down and make small-talk and clink our forks against our plates. and then in between we can do a puzzle there and carve pumpkins there.. reshape friendships there, write letters and stories and novels there. what’s a home without a center?

anyhow. welcome to our streets, autumn. i look forward to crunching leaves on the way to the car every morning.

the bengals have a new WR..

clever.

House Things

I wish that I had a hallway in my house that looked like this.

ps. they pushed harry potter back a whole year. sorry to get your hopes up with my last post.

holy smokes…

I love having things to look forward to.